Somewhere, Over the Rainbow

Date: Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Time: 10:33 PM

I'm sorry uh..

yesterday was...

really too much to handle. :x

well,

i promise i wont do it again uh.

Promise, no break.

After i bathed,

i went to the room in the tears and fish out all my penknifes.

without hesitation,

i cut deeply into my skin..

i didn't cut near to my pulse uh...

coz the penknife was rather rusty.

so i tot didn't cut coz no blood.

then i cut again.

then this time got blood.

along with the first cut,

the blood ooze out.

little by little.

then the blood merge.

-.-

then still very angry.

then cut again.

but not as hard as prev two times.

initially wanted to cut madly like last year but rmb i'm not suppose to cut. :x

so stop le..

then rmb i haven drink medicine.

so went to take the cough syrup that was under my study table and drank it.

agar agar saw the amount left inside before i drink.

then open the bottle and started to drink..

didn't care bout how much i drank.

just kept drinking and drinking..

then suddenly rmb got side effect if overdose.

so i stopped.

felt abit giddy.

so hid the bottle back under my table and the penknifes beside my bed.

off fan, off aircon, off light, slam door and crawl into bed.

wrapped myself with my blanket and msg-ed you.

then those negative images kept flashing in my mind.

then i kept laughing and laughing.

i could no longer differentiate whether i'm laughing or crying anymore.

i just felt numb, felt high.

had a taste of the side effect of overdosing cough syrup.

i tried to stop myself from smiling and laughing..

but to no avail.

i felt like though i was controlled.

no longer by me.

i just know that i felt so horrible.

horrible.

i'm sorry.

i wont do it again le.

i'm serious.

sorry for making you angry and worried.

SomeWhere,Over The R A I N B O W
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