Aites, i'm feeling fucking fed up now.
first him, second her, third me.
wtf?
somebody told me that you told her..
you were single last X'mas.
great, last X'mas you brought me home and intro as gf and made me half-drunk.
me? gf? i tot you were single!
aites, i confronted you and all you said was.
if you think this way, so be it.
then fine.
i'm sorry for ranting at you two days ago..
do you know that it affected me alot?
alot?
did you know that because of you, i met up with a online friend?
we went to the staircase to chat..
and things happened..
i tot i've forgotten bout you..
the feeling was fucking different.
it's just way fucking different.
fuck, i still feel so dirty.
it's not your fault..
it's just my fault.
nth's your fault..
it's all mine.
having you to leave me is my fault for i fail to keep you by my side.
i'm a failure in everything, i know.
and thanks for proving it to me.
all the while we've been together,
were nth but lies.
lies.
thanks for spending your fucking precious time with me.
all your 'i love yous' are lies..
;)

your ex before me, is being such a bitch now alrite?
come disturb me like nobody's fucking business.
just because she got big breast, sweet cleavage and good fashion-taste and figure.
she got all the rights to humiliate me this way right?
then fine.
let it be.

so everything still sums down to me.
everything is my fault.
dont you know?
can you see the blood dripping? no.
they dont drip.
they just accumulate and form a red bubble on the wrist.
pretty isn't it?

split headache, fuck myself.
i'm nth but a sore loser.
HAHA!
i'm an irritant.